Sunday service, mixed feeling

Coming to church today, bring along mixed emotion.

The last time I'm here 2weeks back, they were in me, moving along with the praise and worship, listening to Pastor's sermon.

Today I'm here, they are with Lord Jesus.

Believe they will still be listening joyously to the praise and worship, sitting on Lord Jesus's lap, together with Sarah.

But I just want them to be in me... I miss their movements, I miss talking to them every now and then, from the time I wake up, till three of us go to bed at night.

Yet it's only me talking to myself... No one will react to what I say.. No one will judge or kick me to tell me all is well.

No one.. Nothing... Only me myself...